i am a huge fan of henri nouwen, he was a catholic priest who taught at several theological institutes, lived with the poor in peru, spent time with the trappist monks, and spent the final years if his life with people with mental and physical disabilities at L'arch in Trosly France where people with developmental disabilities live with assistants. he was all about using every single one of his experiences useful to god and others. i am reading through "the inner voice of love," it was his "secret journal" that was written during the most difficult time of his life, where he suddenly lost his self-esteem, his energy to live and work, his sense of being loved, even his hope in God. he had planned on keeping these raw conversation with god a secret until friends asked him, "why keep your anguish hidden from the many people who have been nurtured by your writing? wouldn't it be of consolation for many to know about the fierce inner battle that lies underneath so many of your spiritual insights?" so this morning when i read this, my heart loved.
"there will be a bit ore pain and struggle. you have to dare to live through it. keep walking straight. acknowledge your anguish, but do not let it pull you out of yourself. hold on to your chosen direction, your discipline, your prayer, your work, your guides and trust that one day love will have conquered enough of you that even the most fearful part will allow love (God) to cast out all fear."
"long have you timidly waded holding a plank by the shore, now i will you to be a BOLD swimmer, to JUMP off into the midst of the sea, RISE AGAIN, nod to me, SHOUT! and LAUGHINGLY dash with your hair."
i have got some new stuff being added to my etsy store. there is also going to be a bit of a change in the direction it is going. i am hoping to join and serve with surfing the nations in bangladesh in september....and that means i've got to come up with the money to get there. the changes will be that 10% will be donated to invisible children or missions of charity and the other 40% will go to help fundraise my way there. the lord had completely rocked my world and this just came out of the blue....you really should go check out the gum for my boat trailer and after you see the trailer...i am sure will want to go to the website and buy it!! it has more information about what i will be doing...i plan on writing more later about it:) slowly uploading pictures on my etsy since my computer is the slowest:)
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